Mineshaft

The list of things I used to be
is longer than the list of things I am
Ex-lover, ex-friend, ex-communicated atheist,
ex-patriot living in the heartland,
living on the small chance luck would save the last dance,
for an underrated writer, overrated rhymer, undecided major on an unrelated matter,
this day i'd like to say what all the tug of war is for,
more than slack wrote, more than sunstroke,
than rum soaked in sad jokes at rap shows,
some folks know how slow that trap closes, proses, closes,
I've never been feeling like I found it,
I'm not a writer I just drink a lot about it,
if diamonds are a girls best friend, then you can share a fine laugh and you can send me (back to the bottom of the mineshaft...)

i've been here before and I know where it goes, it goes down. (it goes down)

snow falls faster than angels ash virgina slims,
and if we've come a long way, I've suspected sideways,
further from our origin, no closer to our destination,
I'm bad with names, shit, I'm bad with faces,
I'm bad with bills, and little kids, and running places,
I'm beginning to write like, american: give me a minute on the mic,
a little to like, your rhythm to spite, a bit of the pride to fight,
you tried, you're right fried,
(your lines are all mine)
you're tired, you're fried, you're inside of the line,
its a brilliant design,
it's just like act surprised!

I lost some money on the way to dice,
I lost an octave to the camel lights,
and when I lost you,
I lost some good love and a handsome light,
I lost a friend to my wit, and in my pride I'd rather sit while you drive.

i've been here before and I know where it goes, it goes down. (it goes down)

the plans that we made, and the bills, and the planes, all go downtown.



Dessa. Locale from Minneapolis. On tour in a city near you! (Ok, not really. Sorry east coast.) Stunning talent of spoken word and hip hop. I'm in awe of her.




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Chip Willis. Can't get enough of the photographic genius that he is.

Peter Bajzek. Do you love Figure/Art/Abstract like I do? Read his recent feature with one of our photos in the World of the Nude Art blog.

Sacrifice

I have no words. Gary and Todd express it perfectly for me. Odd combination, but perfect..


I will never grow out of the sitcom "Home Improvement." It's such a lovely life...




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Gary Breckheimer. "Sacrifice of the Gods." I neeeed to work with him again.

T H Taylor. I neeeed to work him again. With Erin. Which will happen.


Stay tuned...

Skinny Love.

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines


Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?



Bon Iver. Listen.


Lovely things fall in my lap all the time. I need to start realizing that.

I have health insurance. I need to start using it.

My cat is quite possibly cooler than any other cat I've met before. srsly. I have proof. :)




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James Graham.

Chip Willis.

BFAM.

my blue heaven

When you're floating around the summer, a bit of a vagrant, surviving off mooching from the g-ma with board and food, and doing odd jobs for a the g-pa, a friend/photog, rare paid shoots, and donating your plasma for gas and miscellaneous necessary expenditures, little is left to just do what you want, when you want.

I've been told this is also the result of responsibilities. Those of which I do not really have yet. It all seems so easy. Maybe I'm just in the presence of practicers who make it look easy.

But... I try to be very grateful for what I do have.

A loving family, loving friends, lots of accessible luxuries, travel opportunities, new and awesome acquaintances, connections, and experiences. I am young, full of potential, and have nothing to lose. Nothing lost, everything gained.

:)


California not long passed the bill to legally marry same sex partners. I heard today that there will be a ballot for an amendment in the fall to overturn it. One quote from a petitioner was

"...love always prevails."

Does it? I sure hope so.

I've always thought it does. Then again, I was raised on Disney movies.

Homogeny, raining down.


Two selves twist and then collide;
You're coming off the cart
I'm coming through.
A torturous condition to a spin cycled submission,
You know, sometimes it just feels better to give in.

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it's you I can't deny.

Dull heat rises from the sheets.
I'm both a patient boy,
Well, and a jealous man.
But double standard of suspicion
Is running deep, oh, my blue heaven,
Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it's you I can't deny.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.
You're safe, child, you are ..

safe.
You are safe.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.
You're safe, child, you are safe.
Coming through?

Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me.
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More then anything you wanted to be right.
Still it's you, you, it's you I can't deny.
(You I can't deny.)
It's you I can't deny.


More whiny Taking Back Sunday. I can't get it out of my system.



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Constantine Gedal. I like this in a very odd way, unique to me.

Stephen Haynes. I like this in a very obvious way, unique to me.

let things flow

This wave had a power, a strength, and a courage to it that is only natural to it. It doesn't know of it, nor has it any individual control. It is driven by its surroundings, lives with it, is obedient to it.

I should be so mailable.


I'm trying to read up, be all literate and... stuff.

I'm in the middle "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. It helps my perspective.

And the new hot tub. the current. and smokes. and wine. and a clear, beautiful, star filled night.

breathe it in. feel alive.

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Dave Swanson. on the north shore.

that water is always cold!

Now.

I'm in a skip divided malfunction
I flap around and dive bomb
Frantically around your light
Enveloped in a sad distraction
I got your voice repeating endlessly
Could you guide me in?
Could you smother me?

I swoop around your head
But I never hit
I'm blinded by your daylight
Electric veins pass through me
I thought there was this big connection
I only got my name I only got the situation
I just need a number and location
Without appropriate papers or permissions
I'm known to bite in tight situations
And I head into your french windows
I thought there was a big connection
I only got my name I only got my situation
I just need my number and location

And my mum keeps telling me
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
The devil may
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
You are a fool
For sticking round
Yeah you are a fool
For sticking round
I tried every trick in the book
I tried to look and knew
Every trick in the book
But how come I look?

No more common dress or elliptical caress
Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
In love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When you walk in the room it's a terrible mess
When you walk in the room I start to melt
When you walk in the room I follow you round
Like a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a lapdog
I'm your lapdog, yeah
I just got a number and location
I just need my number and location


Thom Yorke.
take me away.


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Stephen Melvin. special location.
Stephen Haynes. special loved one.

thrown aside

NYC is canceled, last minute, not of my doing, but I'm actually glad it was. It was a bit of an awkward situation, and I didn't feel completely comfortable staying there. But of course, missing out on the other shoots and plans I had scheduled sucks ass.

I feel so grateful to have support from my dearest friends. I hope they know how much they're appreciated and loved.

Pictures. Always make me feel better.





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James Graham.

home

Short post. Places to go, people to see, shit to pack.

But hey, hey, hey! I have health insurance! Go me!
Maybe I should have that burn looked at...

And, more excitingly, pictures from JMG. ooooh yeah.




Tomorrow... NYC!

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James M. fucking Graham.

; )

trick photography

A song for my limbo love life.


I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me
then when graced with your company.
You're making a small change to the way
that you wear your heart.
I like it better, I like it. I like it better now

I'll swing from a streetlight
as I will sing oh, oh, oh
I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close

The sunlight's overwhelming the scene that's
composed of you and me in our finest moment.
An amazing illusion was made with trick photography
it seems like you're really...you're really...
it seems like you're really here.

I'll swing from a streetlight
and sing oh, oh, oh
And I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close
we're so close
we're so close

I'll swing from a streetlight
as I will sing oh, oh, oh
And I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close

I'm grilled by your spotlight
And sing oh, oh, oh
we're still in the meantime
but we're oh so, oh so close.


The Starting Line.
I came across them again while having my Ipod on shuffle while on the road.

It's whiny, and direct. And I rock so hard to this song. It fits me perfectly right now.



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Constantine Gedal. And Erin.