Sacrifice

I have no words. Gary and Todd express it perfectly for me. Odd combination, but perfect..


I will never grow out of the sitcom "Home Improvement." It's such a lovely life...




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Gary Breckheimer. "Sacrifice of the Gods." I neeeed to work with him again.

T H Taylor. I neeeed to work him again. With Erin. Which will happen.


Stay tuned...

Skinny Love.

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines


Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?



Bon Iver. Listen.


Lovely things fall in my lap all the time. I need to start realizing that.

I have health insurance. I need to start using it.

My cat is quite possibly cooler than any other cat I've met before. srsly. I have proof. :)




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James Graham.

Chip Willis.

BFAM.

my blue heaven

When you're floating around the summer, a bit of a vagrant, surviving off mooching from the g-ma with board and food, and doing odd jobs for a the g-pa, a friend/photog, rare paid shoots, and donating your plasma for gas and miscellaneous necessary expenditures, little is left to just do what you want, when you want.

I've been told this is also the result of responsibilities. Those of which I do not really have yet. It all seems so easy. Maybe I'm just in the presence of practicers who make it look easy.

But... I try to be very grateful for what I do have.

A loving family, loving friends, lots of accessible luxuries, travel opportunities, new and awesome acquaintances, connections, and experiences. I am young, full of potential, and have nothing to lose. Nothing lost, everything gained.

:)


California not long passed the bill to legally marry same sex partners. I heard today that there will be a ballot for an amendment in the fall to overturn it. One quote from a petitioner was

"...love always prevails."

Does it? I sure hope so.

I've always thought it does. Then again, I was raised on Disney movies.

Homogeny, raining down.


Two selves twist and then collide;
You're coming off the cart
I'm coming through.
A torturous condition to a spin cycled submission,
You know, sometimes it just feels better to give in.

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it's you I can't deny.

Dull heat rises from the sheets.
I'm both a patient boy,
Well, and a jealous man.
But double standard of suspicion
Is running deep, oh, my blue heaven,
Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it's you I can't deny.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.
You're safe, child, you are ..

safe.
You are safe.

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.
You're safe, child, you are safe.
Coming through?

Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me.
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More then anything you wanted to be right.
Still it's you, you, it's you I can't deny.
(You I can't deny.)
It's you I can't deny.


More whiny Taking Back Sunday. I can't get it out of my system.



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Constantine Gedal. I like this in a very odd way, unique to me.

Stephen Haynes. I like this in a very obvious way, unique to me.

let things flow

This wave had a power, a strength, and a courage to it that is only natural to it. It doesn't know of it, nor has it any individual control. It is driven by its surroundings, lives with it, is obedient to it.

I should be so mailable.


I'm trying to read up, be all literate and... stuff.

I'm in the middle "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. It helps my perspective.

And the new hot tub. the current. and smokes. and wine. and a clear, beautiful, star filled night.

breathe it in. feel alive.

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Dave Swanson. on the north shore.

that water is always cold!

Now.

I'm in a skip divided malfunction
I flap around and dive bomb
Frantically around your light
Enveloped in a sad distraction
I got your voice repeating endlessly
Could you guide me in?
Could you smother me?

I swoop around your head
But I never hit
I'm blinded by your daylight
Electric veins pass through me
I thought there was this big connection
I only got my name I only got the situation
I just need a number and location
Without appropriate papers or permissions
I'm known to bite in tight situations
And I head into your french windows
I thought there was a big connection
I only got my name I only got my situation
I just need my number and location

And my mum keeps telling me
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
The devil may
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
You are a fool
For sticking round
Yeah you are a fool
For sticking round
I tried every trick in the book
I tried to look and knew
Every trick in the book
But how come I look?

No more common dress or elliptical caress
Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
In love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When you walk in the room it's a terrible mess
When you walk in the room I start to melt
When you walk in the room I follow you round
Like a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a lapdog
I'm your lapdog, yeah
I just got a number and location
I just need my number and location


Thom Yorke.
take me away.


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Stephen Melvin. special location.
Stephen Haynes. special loved one.

thrown aside

NYC is canceled, last minute, not of my doing, but I'm actually glad it was. It was a bit of an awkward situation, and I didn't feel completely comfortable staying there. But of course, missing out on the other shoots and plans I had scheduled sucks ass.

I feel so grateful to have support from my dearest friends. I hope they know how much they're appreciated and loved.

Pictures. Always make me feel better.





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James Graham.

home

Short post. Places to go, people to see, shit to pack.

But hey, hey, hey! I have health insurance! Go me!
Maybe I should have that burn looked at...

And, more excitingly, pictures from JMG. ooooh yeah.




Tomorrow... NYC!

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James M. fucking Graham.

; )

trick photography

A song for my limbo love life.


I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me
then when graced with your company.
You're making a small change to the way
that you wear your heart.
I like it better, I like it. I like it better now

I'll swing from a streetlight
as I will sing oh, oh, oh
I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close

The sunlight's overwhelming the scene that's
composed of you and me in our finest moment.
An amazing illusion was made with trick photography
it seems like you're really...you're really...
it seems like you're really here.

I'll swing from a streetlight
and sing oh, oh, oh
And I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close
we're so close
we're so close

I'll swing from a streetlight
as I will sing oh, oh, oh
And I'm stuck in the meantime
but we're so oh, oh, oh close

I'm grilled by your spotlight
And sing oh, oh, oh
we're still in the meantime
but we're oh so, oh so close.


The Starting Line.
I came across them again while having my Ipod on shuffle while on the road.

It's whiny, and direct. And I rock so hard to this song. It fits me perfectly right now.



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Constantine Gedal. And Erin.

Sometimes, you just get burned.

As did I.


(the far right burn has blistered and is now open. eww. oww.)


While making Macaroni and Cheese.

sigh. I'm such a frickin klutz.


I thought I better give the photographers I'm planning to work with a heads up. It's not quite as extreme as going to a shoot with a new, shiny shaven head when the photographer expects you to have long, flowing hair, and you haven't given them any prior knowledge of any changes. And even though this was an accident, I still thought it be good if y'all know what to expect.

I'm in Lincoln, Nebraska at the moment shooting with Michael Farrell. I just saw the contact sheets from our last shoot in November and.... WOW! I'm so impressed. Now I just have to wait until Fall, after he's done with his one man gallery show featuring his landscape photos, when he will scan all my photos, and send me a *big* print, or two. :)

Tomorrow is Kansas City. Again.


...I'm really scared that this NYC trip is going to fall through....

Maybe I'm just being my typical worrying self.
But maybe I'm not.

Edit: I was being my typical worrying self.

All I know is that I want more moments like this:





I'm a bit homesick. I'm a little tired of driving.
whine, whine, whine.

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Excuse the crappycellphonecamerapic.

Rick Poston capturing Gary Breckheimer and I at our best: Vamping with Marylin.

She's in my squares.

And she's beautiful.



...and I don't think these are half bad.





My favorite:



...even though she's blinking, her feet are cut off, and there's a lamp growing out of her head.

Sometimes I just adore imperfections.


Or maybe... I'm completely biased and won over by that cute little smile.

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Yep, I pushed the shutter button 4 times.

Go me. :)

- Rolleiflex, tmax 120 -