going inwards.



i'm trying to

find calm in my present surroundings.





keep my balance.





block out all distractions.








i'm looking forward to the new morning.






it's on the horizon.

i'll see you in a fortnight or so.


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AJ Kahn.
Stephen Haynes.
Nad Iksodas.
Sylvie Blum.
David Winge.

Positive.

I love this pose.
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Sylvie Blum. Second Shoot.

I want to forewarn you...

That the upcoming posts for the next month or so will probably be quite depressing.

So, if you dont want to be brought down... just look at the photos.

But this is my blog, dammit, and I choose to share my personal tragedies and blessings as well as my art.






My grandpa, age 73, has chosen to go home (from the hospital) and die. Without his dialysis, he will fill up with fluid and his organs will fail. He, and my grandmother, have raised me since I was 6 months old. He is the closest thing to a father that I have.

Everyone will die, yes... I know, I know. And I dont want my Papa to suffer...

But how can I possibly wrap my head around this so that it's okay?

I feel paralyzed. I haven't slept well for days. I should have gone today, but can't seem to force myself to go to class. Creating art hasn't distracted me for more than 15 minutes at a time, and I can't put my heart into it.

I will see him later today, still in the hospital. I want to be strong, but then again, I just want to break down, throw my arms around him and beg him to keep trying. Change your mind, Papa. Don't give up, Papa. Please, please don't give up... I need you to stay alive.

But goddamn it, how selfish is that?




I feel tangled up and all alone.

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Sylvie Blum. From our second shoot.

Playing hookie

So, I've been playing hookie from school this past week. It was pretty much necessary - I've been bogged down with stress, the blues, and family gloominess that I just needed to hop on a plane, escape, and go have some fun and make some art.

I've had an amazing time this week. I finally got to work with two photographers I've wanted to collaborate with for a very long time: Nad Iksodas & AJ Kahn. They were wonderful, and I had an absolute blast creating art with both of them. I also got to visit and stay with Lela Rae again, which was so very lovely. She is a sweetheart.


(Photo by AJ Kahn)

I also got to work with two favorites again: Dave Levingston and Chip Willis. Both have very different styles, but both are brilliant in their own way.



(Photo by Chip Willis)


"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up." - James Baldwin


I am happiest when I am naked. And with friends. Preferably at the same time.

Another Bout

of the beast this week.

Its my own damn fault though. I have been careless, reckless and forgetful.

Its hard when you're stuck in your own box and cannot get out.


My education is very important, this I know... but I wish I could suspend it so I could just create art for a few years.


It's all good though. My life is a rollercoaster and I'm getting used to the ups and downs.


Bring it on.


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Ed Freeman.

You're going to make mistakes, you're young

Get hot, get too close to the flame
Wild, open space
Talk like an open book
Sign me up
Got no time to take a picture
I'll remember someday
all the chances we took
We're so close to something better left unknown

I can feel it in my bones
Gimme sympathy
After all of this is gone
Who'd you rather be?
The Beatles or the Rolling Stones?
Oh, seriously
You're gonna make mistakes, you're young
Come on, baby, play me a song
Like, "Here Comes the Sun"

Don't go, stay with the all-unknown
Stay away from the hooks
All the chances we took
We're so close to something better left unknown








I have to make mistakes to learn. You make me forget and remember who I am.


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Erin. Taken with a Diana.

Summer Adventures - Sylvie Blum

One of my greatest ambitions in my fine art modeling is to work with artists that share my passion for creating classic, tasteful, figurative and/or abstract and/or structural fine art nudes. Although I greatly respect and admire other forms of fine art nudes, including but not limited to, conceptual, emotive, experimental, erotica, fashion-esque...etc., it's not what lights my fire and passion deep within.

I think the most beautiful thing in the whole world is the human body. Not only for aesthetic reasons, but also for intrinsic reasons.

I've only worked with a few photographers that share my passion for figurative/abstract nude art. But every time I work with said photographers, I always come away from the shoot feeling that rush of adrenaline and the superb satisfaction of collaborating and creating impeccable art with extremely talented artists, not to mention I receive a few masterpieces for my portfolio.

Sylvie Blum is, no doubt, one of those few photographers I've had the utmost pleasure of working with. She has a true, passionate artist's heart, an exceptional eye and talent, and a generous, kind, and beautiful personality.







I'm extremely giddy to say that I will be working with her again soon.
Very soon, in fact.

We will be shooting together over the course of three days... next week! I'm flying out to LAX next Monday and staying in Hollywood September 7-10. I expect these sessions will be as wonderful and productive, if not more so, as our first session was.

I feel extraordinarily humbled and privileged to have such favorable regard of such a prolific and internationally renown fine art nude photographer. It makes my heart swell with joy!

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Sylvie Blum !!!

It Starts

Fall semester classes have officially started.

How did summer fly by so fast??

I only went to the North Shore once this summer, and that makes me sad. Hopefully Matt and I can make a quick trip up to Temperance River one of these weekends before it gets too cold.

One of my favorite things is waking up to the fresh northern lake air cuddled up next to my man. A close second would be making coffee and breakfast sandwiches on the camp stove. But by far, my favorite thing in the world is laying out on the rocks on the shore on a clear night and looking at the stars. For those of you who live in cities and never get a chance to get away from the light pollution at night to look up... you're really missing out.

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There might be an exciting adventure next weekend. But I'm keeping it under wraps until I know more...

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This is old news to those of you who have visited and browsed through either my website or Matt's website recently, but an image of ours was chosen to be on the cover of a Lithuanian magazine called Pravda. I have provided the link for google's translate service, although it provides little to no help in translating.

If interested, here is the PDF version for you to browse.



"Nuogybes" means "Nudity" in Lithuanian.

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Matthew Scherfenberg.

If you aren't already

reading Dr. L., you should be.

She's incredibly insightful and a very eloquent writer.

Read her latest post: The Model and Her Audience.

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Matt Blum.

Website!

I finally have my own domain name!

http://www.artmodelbrookelynne.com

yay! :D