Everyday we must evaluate ourselves and the situation we're in, and then act.
Sometimes we take the wrong action, or no action at all.
And most of the time, the consequences to those actions show up far later then when we actually do the action.
And most of us do the action that will provide the most pleasurable consequence first, regardless if that same action has a worse consequence in the farther future.
I'm wondering if my modeling, although its been a very rewarding experience, will turn up to bite me in the ass later on down the road. Maybe I'll decide that I want to teach or work with children. As much as I'd like to think that our world will become more progressive in the view of nude art, I know that somehow, someway, some misguided, ignorant parent or school official would find pictures of me and I'd be s.o.l. for a job. And I wouldn't even blame them.
I wonder how many bridges I will burn with my shortsightedness.
And how many times I will go through the cycles and the motions.
And how many times I will just have to accept life as it comes. Including what actions I take, because they all seemed like a good idea at the time.
My pursuit is not for happiness, but for peace. To be at peace, happiness will irrefutably follow.